.

My Baby Turns 4!

2011-08-28T19:33:00.000-07:00

I can't Believe my baby boy Is 4! He brings us so much Joy, Love, and Laughter! he is so funny it just seems like yesterday Joe and I were looking down at this 3 month old baby like what do we do? well he has made it! and boy what a personality is he bringing to the table! Justin Morgan I love you more than life its self and I God for each and everyday you have been in Our Lives you make life easy!

Vacation!

2011-07-03T08:18:00.000-07:00

Well, I have to admit I have actually, got Teared up thinking about going back to work Tuesday Joe and I have been off 10 days and it has been so nice to Just be off no plans and spend it with our family! the First couple days we just hung around the house. Then Wednesday we took the kids To Branson To the Grand Country Inn Water Park and Hotel and we stayed one Night, and then the next day and the Kids had a blast!!! they did not want to leave. and for the price it was totally worth it! Then Thursday evening We went and Picked Up Mikey. And Friday Morning he and Joe went fishing they had a great time! we usually get to him every couple months which is nice. Next Friday he will be 13! he has changed so much in looks and maturing he is doing very well at his new home. Which makes me very Proud and a huge comfort knowing God was in Control the whole time. And back to the Vacation, Friday evening Toby and Brittany and baby Ian came to visit he is a Doll!!! And then Saturday evening Grandma GeGe (Joe's Mom) cam over we did fireworks and cooked out and on a whim drove to Fayeteville to see the Fireworks it was very cool! so It has been a great vacation Filled with lots of Family and Fun events! Then Tonight Ella and Justin are Going to spend the Night with Nana and Mommy and Daddy get a Date yea!!
Justin and Ella get to see Haley and Amy there cousin's who are visiting from Springfield they love Them!!!! Justin Say's Haley is his Girlfriend lol! which she is 14 so its pretty funny but it is neat that they are so close. Hope everyone has a Happy and Safe 4th I have been Blessed to have this week with family!

8 Years and Counting!!

2011-05-19T17:13:00.000-07:00

Our Anniversary is Coming up On Tuesday May, 24Th we will be married 8 years and Together 11 it has been a crazy unexpected ride! We have been through 4 Deaths in our family, a new Business, a diabetic dog lol! Poor Thor! RIP Buying a new home, and last but not least!!! 2 babies at one time and a 12 year old boy for a year! we love our Mikey! and yes we are still married! lol! Life is never as we planned nor tis is Life But I can say we have had a couple broken Remotes, and Lot's of agreeing to disagree! But we are still going strong. The night I met Joe on my 21st Birthday I never dreamed it would lead me here! he has made me strive to be a better person, walk more in Love and he is my Best Friend I use to ask him if he would still love me when i was fat been there, and when i look old. Now i have just cut it down will you change my diapers when I am old? His Response "I hope we have enough Money by then to pay someone to do that!" I Love you Joe Aguirre! and I will be happy to grow old with you.

Mother's Day

2011-05-07T05:25:00.000-07:00

This actually my 2 Official Mother's Day! I Can't Believe how fast my Kiddo's are growing up! its so crazy how fast time gets away from you! for many of you who know or don't know our story, We were struggled with Infertility for 4 years to find out the only way we could become parent's would be through inventro fertilization making a long story short, and at the that time in 2006 we had just bought a house, and did not have the funds to finance the cost of fertility . I was done Exhausted, I felt like God has punished us and it was not meant to be for us to have children. So one day i was in church and started Praying and asking God what do i do now where do we go from here? and God finally answered my whole hearted crying out in Prayer "Just Because you don't Bare a child doesn't mean there is not a Child for meant for You"
And I sat there thinking what? and Later It clicked I had always wanted to be a Case worker for DHS But In My heart knew i COULD NOT DO IT! so Plan B was to Be a Foster Parent and Try and Adopt/ so I went to Joe thinking he would say no, Luckily his heart was in the same place as mine and we Went to the meeting and the rest is History! God Not only answered my Prayer he Doubled it!!!!!! We were Blessed with a Boy Justin Morgan who was 3 months and Ella Kate who was 14 months so most people remember the day they gave birth I remember detail for detail the day i met My sweet babies November 14th we did not know until 16 months later we would be there Forever Parents, Our whole world changed for the Better God knew He just had get get me on board. My life had became better more fulfilled and Blessed beyond Belief since I have had them. I may not have given them Life But I will give them a Life hopefully they will be as Proud as a I am of My Mother. We all make mistakes as Parents but Hopefully Ella and Justin will know and Realize how much they mean too me and have changed my life for the better I love you and cant think God above enough for giving me the greatest gift of Motherhood. Happy Mothers Day! Hope you are all as Thankful as I am to Be a Mother!

Our First Pageant!!

2011-04-28T19:25:00.000-07:00

Well April 9Th was Ella Kate's First and Only Pageant! Little Miss Van Buren she did not win, but she got a crown so to her she won! She did great! and I have joined a Mom's group and we hosted our first event The Mom's Easter Egg Hunt which worked out great! since it rained Easter!it has been nice Meeting Mom's with Kid's my Kid's ages.It has been nice I have met a Mom That we hang out with their family now so its nice!the kids are growing fast! tear ;( I am sad we have a lot going on in 2 weeks Jordan our Oldest Niece graduates High School! Wow! When Joe and I were Dating she was 7! where does the time go?

Greatful

2011-04-02T20:14:00.001-07:00

I haven't blogged in forever!! I have had so many thing lately that have felt passionate about to blog about it i just haven't taken the time to do it. I feel like i have been running a million miles an hour well, the kids are growing to fast and the thing s that have been saying have been hilarious! I have been trying to write down everything they say! It has been hard! but here are some famous saying's lately of Justin Morgan....

"Mommy Cows make chocolate milk, and hot chocolate."
before church he said "I Hope Jesus Likes My Hair"

Ella Kate's famous sayings her thick Country accent...

"Mommy I love you so Much"
"Mommy and Daddy you are my Best Friends"
"Mommy I love you so Much"

She is a sweetie and so is he just very different children! I am posting some pictures of them writing there name very Impressed they go to an amazing Preschool that I am Grateful for! there have been a lot of bad thing happen lately and I was crying thsi week because I am so grateful for my Health, Family, Healthy Children and healthy Husband I am Blessed for every Gift and Thing God has Blessed me with there are so many People that are so worse off I serve an Amazing God and I am truly Grateful for my amazing but Simple Life I may not do Amazing things or be Famous for anything But I hope to Be like My Mamwa and Be Famous for being me.

Home

2011-01-31T19:46:00.000-08:00

It’s a four letter word
a place you go to heal your hurt
It’s an alter, it’s a shelter
One place you’re always welcome
a pink flamingo, double wide
One bedroom in a high rise
a mansion on a hill
Where the memories always will
keep you company
whenever you’re alone
after all of my running
I’m finally coming

Home.

Lyrics By Country Strong.

I saw this Movie a couple weeks ago and Got the Soundtrack and needless to Say me and Ella Kate are in Love with it she Will get in the car and say "Momma Play our Song Country Strong"! Its so cute! But I have thought about this Song and More if The name and What Home means? "Home" Gosh that means so many things our Mom's house the state we live inn the Smell of Our Home, That is what I remember Most about every Home I have Been in is the Smell of it, and When I smell that or a similar smell I immediately think of that home. I have been thinking of Blogging about this and this weekend and I was like yea that"s it! We finally got to keep Mikey this weekend he has been gone from our home for a month now. It has been extremely Emotional for me which I shared with Mikey this weekend he was Happy to see everyone and the Kids especially missed him! He is growing up to be such an awesome Little Man! it is Pretty Cool, to think Joe and I had a small hand in it, I think he will go on to do great things in Life now that he has the right tools in his Life he will be all set! But what made me think of the title Home, Mikey and I were talking and He said your House smells good Just like the first day I came to your house I said really? what does it smell like he Paused and Said HOME. My heart Just dropped and made me feel good that our Home to him signified Safety, Comfort and just smelled like Home. To me growing up my Aunt Linda and Uncle Bill's Home always smelled like Home to me. Because it smelled like a certain smell but it signified to me Safety, Comfort, Good food and Love. Every time we Went there it was fun and Safe from my sometimes not safe Childhood so I 100 percent understand What Mikey meant by our Home. Now when I spend Time In Prayer and Praising God I feel an at Home Presence no Home I have ever been at can make me feel its Amazing so no matter where you call Home. There is an amazing Home Feeling for me in God's Presence I feel more at Home than anywhere else and I guess the Point of Story as Long as you can Go and fall so into God's Presence and Love that no matter where you are you are always at Home.

2011 Starting Off Well...

2011-01-16T20:28:00.000-08:00

I have one word that describes my Post THANKFUL!I love My Life! and I can say it with an Honest Heart and Mean It because I have started this Year off Seeking God, and Leaving the rest as History It is hard to say that and be Honest and I have God and it is so awesome, he is Patient and forgiving because Lord Knows, I make a ton! and need it every time I open my Mouth! I am making changes in my life and for the first time, I can honestly say I feel great about it and 100% trusting, seeking, and Loving him! and I cant forget about my Babies! I cry when I think of the love I have for them, it is amazing and they complete me in every way My Friday nights now consist of Thomas, Barbie and a Popcorn cuddle session with them and its now where else I want to be! and my old Truck which as Joe"s friend Say's the inside needs to be rhino lined and I cant agree more! But driving a paid for car, or getting to spend more time with my family? no brainer decision? I am closing with a verse from My Love Dare day by day devotional Joe and I have been doing it all comes down to Love.

If I speak with the tongues
of Men and Of Angels,
But do not have Love,
I have Become a Noisy Gong
Or a Clanging Cymbal.

If I have The gift of Prophecy,
and Know all Mysteries and
All Knowledge, And If I have
All Faith so as to remove Mountains
But Do not have Love, I am Nothing.

And If I give all my possession's
To feed the poor, and If I surrender
My Body to be burned, But do not
Have Love, It Profits me nothing.

1Corthians 13-1-3

The one Thing I have Learned about Being A Mom..

2011-01-04T20:17:00.000-08:00

It sounds like a crazy title! But as some know Mikey the child we fostered for over year left Sunday to go to his New Adoptive Parents home As I prepared him and My Kids months Prior I still had my hand in it all! wanting to control the situation of where he went to School what counseling and so on..I soon realized as a Momma I was and is still I am a Control Freak! Mother I love all My kids and want only the best and I think Momma knows best! it has been hard not knowing what he is doing if he has taken a shower, went to bed on time if he is lying and they cant tell or if he has a Headache and they don't know his sick look. Ugh!! all those Momma things as a Mom I have gotten to know about him the last year. and Now I am having a hard time Trusting someone else to do what I have done. i know its crazy but it has been hard for me to let go. And I struggle with the same thing in my Walk with The Lord letting My will and Best to put my Trust him. In all Things even the Momma Control! I feel Like a Piece of My Heart of my heart is missing. But I Love this Quote I found it not long after We became Foster Parents I thought If a child ever Left this was Fitting and I feel like it still is. God is Good all the Time!

What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.
Helen Keller

The Call Video

2010-12-31T05:49:00.000-08:00

More Pictures of 2010

2010-12-27T21:13:00.003-08:00

2010-12-27T21:13:00.001-08:00

Christmas

2010-12-27T20:54:00.000-08:00

Can"t Believe it is almost 2011! This year has flown by! it has been a crazy fast year, but I am looking forward to a new year with new possibility's and lots of new things to enjoy with Ella Kate and Justin the thing;s they say lately Lord! you never know what is going to come out of there mouth's! here are some of my favorite pictures of the year! Happy New Year! and I am typing my entry on my new Laptop! love it!

Mikey

2010-12-16T20:34:00.001-08:00

Wow, what a Difference a year makes! in 2007 We Became parents, Of 2 Babies Ella Kate, and Justin and in 2009 We became Parents again well (temporary parents) To an 11 year old Mikey. and it has been a whirl wind of a year, we Were just getting use to being Parents to 2 Toddlers and then now a Pre Teen! it has been a hard but rewarding year, We have learned alot about ourselves and our Marriage and about how to raise a pre teen the boy we now have in our home has changed the boy that first came to our home was Angry,Sad,disappointed,and very hard to Love, the Boy that will be leaving our home in 2 weeks, is now Happy, content, trusting and Loving. He now has a Bright and Wonderful Future ahead of him and is going to a Adoptive home that will help him Thrive, and become a Successful Person that God Meant for him to be Tonite I was going through the Photo Book I gave him of all the Pictures of his Time here and I just Lost it. I am Sad to see him Leave but Happy to Know Joe and I had a hand in changing in his Life. It is Amazing watching him Play Baseball for the First time and all the other Firsts we got to share with him, we plan on staying in touch and still getting him on Weekends Occasionally and still being a Huge part of his Life God can Touch your Life and in turn change someone else's through you God is good all the time.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

2010-10-18T11:52:00.000-07:00

The Title of my Post is so fitting! Someone at church shared that scripture last Sunday about a baby being born into there family, and I Immediately thought of Joe and Ella Kate and Justin I know God knew from the time they were in the womb where they were suppose to be. Before we Adopted I never really thought of it in that way, I just thought You got Pregnant Had a baby and It looked just like you and your Spouse not realizing How Big and amazing God we serve! I really believe Ella and Justin were born to be our Children they just had a nontraditional way of getting to where they belong, And Mikey too I believe Joe and I were put in his Life to get him to where he was meant to be. And I honestly can say after almost a year of having him, His Destination is where God wants him to be. I struggled so much with not keeping him, and then God showed me I was keeping him from where he was meant to go. I think so many times I let my Emotion's override the Will of God if we Trust him and are Faithful he always provides a way For our Family. We are so Blessed for all God has done. Justin had his 3 Year Old check up today he is 38.5 pounds and 39 inch's tall I cant believe it! and he is right on target with everything Proud moment for Momma the only request I made is can the Pediatrician make them stop growing! and Ella Kate had her's in September she is 39 pounds 42 inch's tall they are pretty much twins! And she is finally caught up and on track! it's crazy! Here are some pictures from last year at there check ups and now makes me Sad! Hope everyone is enjoying the Fall Weather!

Ella Kate is 4!!

2010-09-07T19:50:00.000-07:00

As I the I am typing this I cannot believe Ella Kate is 4! I remember the First time I saw her after DHS called me and said they had a blue eyed 14 month old little girl that need placement over the weekend and the rest is history! I picked her up at the Daycare and she was a bald, Blue eyed chubby litte Beautiful Baby she stole my Heart from the Moment I laid eyes on her, I walked up and put my arm's out and she came right to me and laid her head on my shoulder and as I held her it just felt right and that was 3 years ago It is so funny Women who give Birth remember every detail of Labor and exactly how much there babies weighed and as an Adoptive Mother I remember in Detail the first Moment I saw each of my Babies and How I felt, It is something I will never forget! Ella Kate is a very sweet, Loving and Optioned little girl! and I love it, I am trying so hard to Cherise each Moment with my babies because I know how fast they grow 's up, Being a Mother is the best Gift God has given me, My bad day's are better Knowing I have them to come home too, and My good days are enriched by all the sweet words, and funny thing's that fill my day's I only wish I had more time to spend with them with working I feel like I miss out on a Lot But they are in a wonderful Preschool. that they are learning so much! and that makes thing's easier. Happy Birthday Ella Kate, I Love you more than Word's can say you are a true Blessing from God and from the first day I met you we have had an unbreakable Bond since day one I have always Known you will do Great thing's in your Life.

My Baby turn's 3!!

2010-08-22T13:49:00.000-07:00

I cant believe my Justin Morgan turned 3! where has the time gone! we had a small family dinner on the 19th his actual birthday, and this weekend we are having an actual birthday party for Ella and Justin with all of our family and friend's it will be nice but here are some picture's of Justin on his birthday he has been a Joy and a Blessing Since the Day God Blessed Joe and with him! And on the same day Ella and Justin started Preschool with Mr Marty and Mrs Chris at Westend Private School and Mikey started Nortridge Middle School in the 6th grade so here are some picture's of the First day of school with Harley and baby Caden too!

My Wonderful Mamwa!!

2010-08-15T12:11:00.000-07:00

I just realized the last time I blogged was in June and it was about my Mamwa. well she finally went to be with the Lord on July 30th at the age of 91. She now has Peace that I prayed for, But is funny the thing's you Pray for aren't always what you are Prepared to deal with. But God is so Good an amazing he as given me Peace and the wisdom and deal with it way better than I would have ever dreamed. Even though just like the old saying goes Funeral"s and Wedding"s bring out the worst in people! But unfortunately when someone you are closest to passes away you realize how really Care's about you and who is there for you. But with that being said, I am Blessed to have had had for her as long as I did. here is a Summary of what I read at her Funeral Service I had to stop a few times but I got through it Thanks to the help of Ely and my Mom. here are some Pictures I took while I was there this is where she use to live and where Ely and I spent most of our childhood Summer's It was in the middle of nowhere But We learned life Lesson's and made Memories I will never forget.

When I think of my Mamwa the first thought that comes to mind is little and Sassy, she had a huge personality she was everyhting I could have ever asked for in a Grandma. She was sweet, Kind and Loving and a wonderful person and a very strong woman. and very stubborn! Ely and I, have so many memories of Selling Oklahoma, and all of the life lesson's and stories that were told Mamwa style. I loved her like my second Mother she was amazing and I only hope I can be half as strong as she was. She taught me to be a Strong Female and to stand up for what i believed in even if made everyone mad she taught me how to cook, not as good as her and my Mom! how to keep a clean house and in having Pride in always having your face on as she called it and having your hair, and nail's done each day I remember being little and Playing dress up in all her clothes, and Make-up and high heel shoes, She lived through so many changes in our Country and seen and done more than most people get to in a lifetime She was very Healthy and Active until the last three years, of her life have not been good at all, It has been one of the hardest experience's I have gone through with with her She ahs been so Sad and I have felt so helpless I use to spend time at the Nursing home Reading, and talking to her her but mostly holding her hand through it all telling her I loved her and I would never leave her like she never left me, She was always their for me and always doing thing's for me and teaching me thing;s that i will never forget. I will always Miss her and not a day goes by where I don't think of her or think of all thing;s I miss about her She was an awesome role Model and Mentor I will never forget the things she taught me, or the way she made me feel. I only hope to tell my Children about what a wonderful Grandma I had and I can only hope and Pray they get to half the of the relationship I had with her. Mamwa I love You and Miss you, Thank you for showing me what it mean's to be a Strong Woman.

"Surely two of the most satisfying Experiences In Life must be those of being a Grandchild or a Grandparent.

Donald A Noberg.

Come To The Father

2010-06-24T11:53:00.000-07:00

I love That Christian song part of the lyrics are "Come to the Father and you will Thirst No More all you that Labor in Pain" And if You think of those words today and I Just wept in my car, My Mama who I am very close to that is in a Nursing Home and has been for 3 years now, is getting closer to meeting the Lord she is just such a fighter and is still hanging on for reason's only God knows why? and I heard the words to that song and they sound so simple for all of us we all have Pain, But to Some days it is too much I just want to hide and never come out! But i have 2 Reason"s Ella and Justin well 3 counting Mama who all depend on me I am there person to make it all better to be by there bed side to love and kiss away all there problems, and Some days it is all simply too much to fix! Thank God I have a God that will give me Peace. In the midst of it all, I really feel like God puts people in your life for different reasons and it is all a blessing in the end I know too this shall pass, and Wjhen it does like everything else i will be stronger for it! Please Pray for Peace for my poor tired Mama.

Parenthood

2010-05-21T20:24:00.000-07:00

As i was sitting here trying to think of a title for my post that is what came to mind, Parenthood Monday is Joe and I's Anniversary the 24Th we will be married 7 year's and out of that time we have 2 1/2 year's of that we have been Parent's Joe has been a wonderful Husband and now Father, even though things are crazy nonstop chaos! we Love our kid's I know one day we will have the time we did before. We are going out tomorrow to celebrate so looking forward to that! But things they have been saying lately I need to start a Ella and Justin Journal, it has been nonstop it is hilarious! we have been going to church now constantly for now for a while and Ella and Justin go to Sunday school, some of my best Memories of church come from my family my Aunt Becca and uncle Kenny and Aunt Nancy always took Ely and I to church ans I have so many great memories of church because of them. But some of Ella analogies come from Church when I ask her Ella Kate What did you learn today at church? her answer is Jesus is coming back! it is so funny now she sings Jesus loves me ah melts my heart! but she Say's last Sunday I asked what did you learn at church today? her and Justin answer "The Lord Is my Shepard" it was cute they were saying it all day I asked Ella did you learn anything else? She said so serous Jesus is not coming back! and I said why? she said he is stuck up there on that Cross Joe and I died laughing she is a hoot! Justin has started talking out of no where it is so funny and Mikey well 11 and we embarrass him, so let the preteen begin! his last day of school is Friday the 28Th He is ready so I guess what I have come to learn about Parenthood is I have so much respect for my Mom and Dad and Aunt Linda and all the other family that had a hand in raising Ely and I. I am so blessed to have them in my life and now my kids' they are true blessing's from God and I love watching them grow and change I wish i could slow down time our Toddler years are going to fast! Happy Anniversary to us! Blessed to have a good Marriage like Parenthood is a daily Work.

God Is Love

2010-04-12T10:23:00.000-07:00

I am sitting her in my back yard listning to our Pond and thinking how blessed I am to have a husband who loves our family and does things to improve our lives what a gift! and i am totally alone! well except for Izzy and Rosco there is something to be said for solitude! First off I will start by saying it is so amazing when you really and truly 100% give your life to God, how he changes everything in your life wow! I have always been a christian and always what i though had a pretty good relationship with the lord until i have gotten older and now just recently I have 100 percent given my life and every decision i make to him and given up my will and only want his and it is amazing the peace and the changes he is doing in me and my family we are all as a family going to church together and we have finally found a church home yea!!! that has been a tremons blessing!but the church was not the problem it has been my will, see I am very stubborn just like my Mama Pauline and God has been really dealing with me on that in all aspects of my life and especially in my marriage which that has been extremely hard for me, But the more I am obeying te more God is Blessing me! Amen to that! As many of you know we took another Foster child who is 11 we have had him since December and who i have really learned how so very important being a good Parent is to Ella and Justin how his lack of Good parenting. how he is so broken in so many ways it is just so sad, Joe and I have really struggled on how to Parent a child who is already set in his moral values and beliefs it is very difficult, We are really struggling on this issue right now, the thing that my Mom said keeps;s coming back in my Head "You are not the one who put him in this Situation", and it is not up to you to get him out, and it is true, it is up to us to guide him and that is all we can do and give the rest to god, With that being said Ella and Justin are doing amazing! they had a great Easter we got to spend with Joe's family and mine it was awesome! they are truly a blessing to Joe and I everyday we are so in awe of all that they are doing well I will close no have to be at meeting. Hope y'all enjoyed.

The Call

2010-03-19T20:16:00.000-07:00

I know it has been forever since I have blogged not because i haven't had anyhting to say! it seems like every time I have sat down to do it something has came up, but I am not normally a night owl but with the time change I am wide awake! So Joe and the kid's are in bed so i figured ah! Perfect timing Joe's family is here this weekend it has been crazy! but very eventful! Jordan found a prom dress while she was here she is going to her junior prom this year I cant believe she is 17 oh how time flies. I cant believe how fast my babies are growing it makes me so sad! I am trying to cherish every moment like at night when I lay down with Justin until he fall's asleep is so priceless there is no love like being a mother I cherish the time's I have with my babies I love them so much time just gets away from me. Well for people who dont know my story we adopted 2 beautiful babies Ella Kate and Justin from the state Foster care system 2 years ago they were 14 month's and 3 month's we did not know until they were in our home for 16 month's they we were available for Adoption and it has changed our life for only the better it was an amazingly hard Journey but extremely worth it. If God puts it on your heart he is so faithful To his word the whole time I would pray and cry out to God that I wanted more than anything to be a Mother and would I ever be a Mother God Kept telling me be careful what you pray for it! and Yes he was so right I was blessed with 2 babies! and They are the Miracle's i prayed for! they have started the organization here in our area recently called the call it is is www.thecallinarkansas.org I am so excited about this!!!! It is a Christan organization that helps get children out of the system and into forever homes. It is a huge blessing so if you know anyone who is interested or you or you freel like God has put it on your hear please follow it and you will be truly! Blessed. I feel so blessed and Lucky to have gotten them now so proud to be there Mother and I feel very called to what I have in my Life.

Christmas 09 better late than never!

2010-01-25T12:10:00.000-08:00

Wow! where has the time gone! I am so glad the holidays are over! ready for a new year heck we are almost in February! this year has gotten started off good I think? I am posting some pictures of Christmas at Stacy and Steve's house and a few at ours. we got to go to their house the weekend before Christmas and there new house if beautiful!!!!!!! we had a little Drama but Lot's of fun! Ella Kate is so darn sassy! I would swear she has my DNA she is a hoot! she Tell's Joe the other night he is putting her to bed and he has a tiny patch of hair of hair under his mouth and she tells him the other night "Daddy you need to shave that off! he goes no it is my tickle monster and he goes to tickle her she says "Stop it right now! he goes what? she goes you zip it up! oh 13 is going to bad she has an attitude, and Justin is still 150% boy, he is sweet and funny he is 2 and can totally ride Ella's bike with the training wheel's and she cant even ride it! they are so fun never a dull moment at the Aguirre household for sure! we are still fostering the little boy M who is 11 it is going well. A big adjustment on all involved but going well we will probably have him till this summer, We tryed a new church this Sunday and we all loved it! so hopefully we have found a church home! keep us in your Prayer's.

Hip Hip Horrary!!!!!

2009-12-22T18:37:00.000-08:00

Well, Today started off With the normal day except today was the day our Adoption was final for Ella Kate and Justin who proudly present! Ella Katherine Aguirre and Justin Morgan Aguirre!! it is like there being born all over again! as all of you have been following us throughout this Journey know what a ride it has been 2 years later we are a Forever Family! we had a small celebration at the house afterwards nothing big a huge Thank you to Grandma Hott Chambers for making the trip to be here it meant a lot to Joe and I and Sarah and Eric, my Mom and Marie,Harley and Caden we were happy you were there. the kid's were terrible in court let's just say the Judge could totally tell we observed the no spanking rule Lol! Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas!

11 Days and Counting!

2009-12-11T17:28:00.000-08:00

Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It has been the longest 2 years of my life and the hardest November 14th 2007 I was blessed with 2 beautiful babies, and now in 11 days they will finally have our name. What a milestone. I feel so blessed and the time I had no Idea they would be mine forever but God is amazing in so many ways. and even in the bad times and the times we almost lost them. I still tryed to remain Faithful that God had a plan, and he did "Be Still and know I am God" i love that! now today the little Girl that could not talk or walk 2 years ago. Can now climb in my lap ans say Mommy I love You. and i cant tell you what that does to my heart! Justin and Ella Kate i love you with all my heart and soul, and blessed to be your Mommy! These picture's are from last year. where has my Babies gone!

Thanksgiving and Faith

2009-11-26T07:45:00.001-08:00

We have a lot to be Thankful for this year! God has given us 2 reminders that keep us on our toes daily! don't know what or where my life would be without Ella Kate and Justin! as our Adoption is coming upon us very fast! it is in 4 weeks it makes me so grateful, and so glad I had Faith in God trough these past 2 years! we actually got the kids the week before Thanksgiving and they celebrated it with us that next 2 years ago they were 14 Months and 3 months I posted so pictures I cant believe how the Time has flown they are growing up right before our eyes! we are Blessed to watch them grow and hopefully God willing they become Great adults! I know My Mom and Dad did the best they could and I turned out pretty Good. As I sit here God has reminded me small things can wait and big things happen Daily. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone! and May God Bless You! Love and xoxo April

It has been a while

2009-11-20T21:04:00.001-08:00

It has been a while since my last post, It is amazing how time gets away from you!Well the Holiday's are here, It has been crazy at work and crazy at home I cant believe the year is almost over! Well we have done quite a few new thing"s since my last post we took Ella and Harley to their first Arkansas Razorback basketball game and you can tell by Ella's face what kind of time she had! they both loved it! we are gong to take Justin next year he was still too little this year he stayed home with Nana and then we went to Andy and Heathers wedding and reception which was a great deal of fun as parent's we no longer get night's out so special events now are a huge bonus to us! and last but not least our Adoption will be final in 30 days!!! I never thought this day would come! we are so blessed and cant wait to officially become a family! Everyone have a very Happy Thanksgiving as we sit around the table we have a lot to be thankful for! God Bless Love April

Sassy Ella and Bustin Justin

2009-10-19T15:13:00.000-07:00

I had to title it that becasue Ella Kate has been such a sass a frass!!! she use to never be like that and all of the sudden 3 has been all new personality's for her! and Justin is Busting right along rotten as ever! he is all boy I have some picture's of him with the football his Daddy is already training him up! the kid's are tall for sure both in the 90% in Height and Justin is that in weight and Ella is in the 10%. They are amazing who ever knew you could love 2 people so much!!!! I think there cheecks get raw from Joe and I always kissing on them they are Blessing for sure! tehy statred a new Preschool Friday because our Adoption will be Final in 64 days!!!!!!!!!! very excited, So we had to find and affordable and good one so I hope it works out it seems good! I didnt think this day would come! the kids's case worker called last week and she is moving this week, and so she will not be here for the Adooption hearing which is ad :( she has been with us for 2 years, But we wish her well! she has been a God sent, Here are some pictures, I took today at the Park it is beautiful out Today I am off on Monday's so it has become mine and the Kid's day and I enjoy it so much! we also rode the Trolley downtown Justin is obssed with Thomas the Train so he loved it Hope everyone has a great week! trying a new church this weekend so hope it is the one! Love April

Happy Blog Entry!

2009-10-09T07:28:00.000-07:00

I Figured with my lst blog making everyone cry! I had to follow it up with a Happy Moment!! On September 28th at 2:07 P.M Caden Neil Peeler was born! healthy and a nice temper to go along with his arrival Ella Kate and Justin now have a new baby cousin and he is a a cutie! he made his arrival a week and a half early but we were all excited! I have pictures below of him and His big Brother Harley, It was funny Ella held him in the hospital and announced to everyone it was her baby! picked him up and rocked him, she is like her Mommy loves babies!! and the weekend before we took the kids to the Wild Things Farm I recommend that Place the Kids loved it and it so perfect to get fall kicked off!their web site is www.wildthingsfarm.com we are also on the count down to our Adoption being Finalized the new date is December 22nd! What a wonderful Christmas Present Hope Everyone has a Great Weekend Aunt Jojo will be here to see the new Baby. She is leaving early Saturday morning short visit.

Being A Foster Parent

2009-10-04T07:33:00.000-07:00

Joe and I attend the Annual State Foster Parent Convention in Little Rock this past weekend we needed training hours to complete our Adoption, and It was a Free trip so we thought why not? My Mom and Pat and help from my Aunt Linda watched the kids. We attended classes all day but I was not prepared for what happened at the last session They Youth that have been in Foster care and are almost aging out have recently started a board called Y.A.B and they were the last one's to speak at the conference, oh my Gosh! I was not prepared for their stories it made my heart ache! I cryed all the way through there speech's, they were telling of being put in different Foster homes and how bad they were treated it is horrible and it happens everyday and we also so abuse first hand actually the worse case of child abuse a lot of Foster Parents had seen it was a 2 year old boy who had beaten by His Mom's Boyfriend both of his eyes we black, he had choke marks, on his neck and his hair had been ripped out, it was horrific I looked at that baby and my heart ached for him. there is no justice in our system and I know i cant change it but I pray and I know God can. I think it was a sign from God i don't know what or where i go from here but my life has been forever changed by this experience her is a poem we got there it is neat, please Pray for all these children.

Love April

N E V E R M I N D
by Heidi McLain

I will soon become a foster child. I did
nothing to deserve this.
Can I stay with you for a while?
Never mind. You think you are too old.

I am hungry. I had powdered creamer for
dinner.
Could you make me a peanut butter and
jelly sandwich?
Never mind. You're going out to dinner
tonight.

I am sick. My mom didn't take good care
of me.
Can you please take me to the doctor?
Never mind. You have to meet a friend for
coffee.

I have been homeless. I have never slept
in a bed before, and I am almost ten.
Can I sleep on your son's top bunk?
Never mind. You want him to have
his own room.

I do poorly in school. My dad was always
too drunk to help me with homework.
Can you guide me through it?
Never mind. You have to go shopping.

I am suffering. My mom's boyfriend broke
my arm.
Can you please comfort me?
Never mind. You will get too attached.

I am scared. Everyone who ever loved me,
hurt me.
Can you hold me?
Never mind. It's Monday night football.

I feel worthless. No one ever wanted to be
with me.
Can you teach me how to play ball?
Never mind. You have to take your
daughter to piano lessons.

I am sad. So many things are bothering
me.
Will you listen to me?
Never mind. Tonight is your PTA meeting.

I have been neglected. Every night, I wish
I were never born.
Can you help me want to live?
Never mind. You are getting ready to go
on vacation.

I have lost hope. My dad said he wouldn't
beat me if I weren't so stupid.
Can I come learn from you?
Never mind. Your think your house is
not big enough.

I have been bullied. All the kids call
me "dirty boy."
Can I please bathe at your house?
Never mind. You are getting ready for a
party.

I have no self-esteem. No matter what I
do, it isn't good enough.
Can you encourage me?
Never mind. You are watching television.

I have no role model. My dad left us, and
my mom went to jail.
Could you show me what is right and
wrong?
Never mind. You have yard work to do.

I have no friends. I have never gotten to
go anywhere besides school.
Will you take me with you to church?Never mind. It would be too much of a
hassle.

I have been abandoned. My mom leaves
my baby sister and me alone.
Can you watch over us for a while?
Never mind. It would hurt you too much
when we left.

I am lost. No one has ever been there for
me, and I don't know whom I can trust.
Can you introduce me to God?
Never mind. You have errands to run.

I am in need. There are not enough loving
foster parents.
Will you become one? ....Never mind.

Our Vacation and Misc

2009-09-03T12:20:00.000-07:00

Warning Lot's of Pictures!!! We have been everywhere most of the picture's our from our vacation we took in August Joe's whole family was here which was crazy! but fun so i posted some of them, the kid"s loved them being here! so it has been crazy! the moved our Adoption date to December 22ND so i has been crazy because we thought it was going to be final in August so we have a huge change in plans! I had Ella Tested at beacuse I thought she may still be a little behind, and she is just a borderline so she may start that school in a Month still not sure of the transportation issue because her school is in Alma? so we are trying to figure it out! But we want her to definitely be caught up before kindergarten, so any way Justin and Ella Kate are both doing well, they are officially 2 and 3! so they are full of energy! and crazy little toddlers!! oh and My blog will be getting a total makeover in October her web is www.jengetsfancy.com so Excited so check back to see!

Thank You Jessica

2009-08-16T13:13:00.000-07:00

I forgot to say a huge Thank you to Jessica www.meinardusphotography.com for coming and taking picture's in the Heat! for the Kid's party!!

Kids Birthday and Adoption Party

2009-08-16T12:52:00.000-07:00

It has Been one crazy week! here at the Aguirre house! all of Joe's Family has been here from out of town since Tueday there have 15 people in and out and we have been running crazy then Friday was Marie's and Cliff's baby shower so Mr Caden will make his appreance soon! and Ella Kate is so excited! then Saturday was the kid's Party so it has been chaos! But I have enjoyed it! I love joe's family no diffent than my own! Joe's sister was here from New York with our daughter Taylor who has not meet Ella Kate and Justin yet, and she was a huge help! she can move inn! so last 2 picture's are of our oldest neice Jordan who is 16 and look's like a model! and the rest is other neice abd nefew;s I will post more pictures of this week soon Justin yanked out my cord so now I have tp put them on a cd first! Love little Boys! Have a Great week! Love April

Our Toddler Shower

2009-07-21T13:05:00.000-07:00

My Aunt Linda and my Cousin Kerrie had Joe and the kids a Toddler shower It was Wonderful! there were 55 people that came, not all at once but stopped by I am posting the pictures Kerrie took which turned out cute! Thanks to everyone who came and a big One to my Aunt Linda and Kerrie Love you! oh and we are on the count down! we have 25 Days until the kids Adoption/Birthday Party!!! For the Kids all of Joe's family will be here which is a Miracle for them to all get to come and all my Family will be here we are Blessed to have such Great Families who have Loved Ella Kate and Justin no diffrent then if they were born into this family.

New Pictures!

2009-07-09T06:27:00.000-07:00

I know I get there pictures made a lot~ But I trade out with Jessica and She is so good! especially with my Kids so there will be a lot of pictures in their future! I just loved these pictures it really shows there personality's! Thanks again Jessica! visit her blog to see her work it is www.meinardusphotography.blogspot.com

The 4th and end of June.

2009-07-06T10:41:00.000-07:00

I have been bad Lately about posting, But I am here today! We had a Great 4th Of July Justin loved the Fireworks and Ella was scared! so Mommy saw no fireworks! we has a cookout with some friends and had a great time! Our friends Jennifer and Alan and heir baby Landon who came Ella was little Miss Mommy I help she would day it was so cute! and Justin is obsessed with mowing he says i "mow" it is funny! they are a mess I cant believe it is July but here are some pictures if they will post my computer is being weird. and there are also some pictures of our backyard and some pf our front Joe works so hard and he is so Proud! so I had to post some Thanks Honey! for taking good care of the yard. Have a Great week!

Harley

2009-07-01T06:47:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted in a while but this time i wanted to do a post about my nephew Harley. before Joe and I had 2 kids we kept Harley a lot and were very close with him he. and we had a special bond from the moment he came into this world he was so hard to put to sleep an I was one of the few to conquer that! he is a special wonderful child and I feel so blessed to have him in my life I miss getting that one and one with him, Harley we love you so much and we are so blessed to have you in our lives you are awesome and such a good example to Ella and Justin!

How Time Flies!

2009-06-08T13:31:00.000-07:00

We have been crazy around here so I am behind on my post's! we are approaching the terrible 2"s Justin and terrible 3"s Ella Kate. Her new favorite word's are "Ella Kate do it" "My turn!" and I want to wear my Dora dress Mommy! and she has already informed she is having a Dora Cake and Justin is having a Diego one! for their Birthday"s she thinks she is all grown! She is so funny and Justin has started trying to talk a bunch and Daddy has taught them both how to call the Hogs! it is Hilarious! but here are some pictures from some different things. I talked to the kids Attorney last week and the legal stuff is complete with the Mom and we are just waiting for all the paper work to be completed by our adoption worker. we have 9 weeks until the court Hearing August 11th! Yea!!!! we are excited Everyone have a good week!

This Weekend

2009-05-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

This Weekend we took the Kids to the Trout Farm and they had so much fun as you can see and this coming up Weekend is Joe and I"s anniversary we will be married 6 years on the 24th so hopefully we will get a weekend without the kids love ya but everyone needs a break! Eveyone have a good Memorial Day weekend!

Stop and Smell the Roses

2009-05-07T19:57:00.001-07:00

Joe planted these Rose's in a pot for me about a year ago I have been so terrible at taking care of them so he steps in and does it for me! Thank goodness but these are not just any roses they are some my Mama had planted and in her yard. She was a wonderful Gardner I didn't not inherit that gene! and 2 years ago after her stroke that has left her pretty much paralyzed from everything and she is now in a Nursing Home her in Fort Smith I don't get by to see her as much, As I would like I think of her very often! but any way my Mom dug these up for me and it it such a nice reminder of her we were very close but here are some pictures of Ella Kate enjoying them and some new pictures. Enjoy! Have a Happy Mother's Day I feel blessed to Have my Mom and my 2 Miracles to share it with!

The Love of a Mother

2009-04-21T20:02:00.000-07:00

I have been having a hard time lately in general Money, Job and stress I have let get the best of my Joy and I hate when I let the devil steal my Joy! I have been stressing about money to the max where it is ridiculous! I have been looking endlessly for a preschool for Ella Kate and no one has an opening or it is way out of my price range well I think I have finally found one! not for sure yet? i haven't found out all the details yet? but I was thinking today how much I love being a mom not just a mom but Justin and Ella's mom it is the best gift I have ever been given but is teaching me to be a better person for them and my husband. the journey Joe and I had to get to this point was long. and very hopeless until they fell in our lives. there is a verse from the Rascal Flatt's song that I love and describes both our journeys "This much we know Is true that God Blessed the broken, road that led us straight to you...... I love that. but I know God would not bless us. and not provide a way to provide. I know it will work out being a mother means driving a 10 year old car to afford a better preschool wearing your summer clothes from last year and looking at your children and realizing man, they have better clothes than me! Thank you Jesus for all that I have. and most important for giving me the best job I have ever had Motherhood.

Easter-Binky exchange!

2009-04-15T11:08:00.000-07:00

Well for Easter this year we had agreement with Ella and Justin that they would give up there Binky's for candy and give them to the Easter Bunny aka Uncle Toby! and it was pretty funny Ella was terrified of the Easter Bunny and as you can see Justin did not mind! they haven't had them since Saturday and they have done better than I thought? they both ask for them every night but I thought i would share this Idea for anyone who has major attachments to the Binky! oh and Uncle Toby also brought the stomach virus with him! so needless to say It has been horrible around here! I am home today with Justin still been running fever but is a little better. Today! I hope everyone had a Happy Easter!

2009-03-30T19:35:00.001-07:00

Today we had the babies pictures done Jessica Meinardus did them and she did a great Job! she is so good with little ones! and her prices are wonderful! her blog is http://www.meinardusphotography.blogspot.com/ and the babies did a lot better than I thought! just looking at their pictures make"s it all worth it! they are our Miracles! I thank God for them everyday!

This Weekend

2009-03-29T19:51:00.000-07:00

Well this weekend we had no definite plans so we went with the flow our friends Kenny and Crystal called to see if we wanted to hang out so Saturday night Joe and I and the kids, Kenny and Crystal went bowling it was an event with 2 toddlers to say the least! but Kenny and Crystal hung in there with us. They are some of our Best couple friends! we love them so much and enjoyed getting to spend time with them I posted a picture from like 4 years ago in Florida of us all and there son Peyton who is pictured he still liked hanging out with us then! now he is 8 and his life is way more social than ours for sure! then Sunday afternoon my Mom came over and watched the kids so Joe and I could have time to ourselves we went to lunch at Olive Garden it was so nice to spend time togeather.

What are we going to do!

2009-03-26T19:35:00.000-07:00

Well we have a biter on our hands Justin who is 19 months has bit 2 kids a daycare and keeps pulling this little girls hair. I am so embarrassed and I feel so bad for the kids and there parents! I hate it! I looked it up on line on how to get them to stop biting and i have tried all there suggestions I know its just a phase but its horrible I was rocking him to sleep tonight and after he feel asleep he looked so cute and innocent! which he is a good baby he is just all boy! Ella Kate was and is so good she never bit other kids and she is so easy going they are total opposites I don't know what to do any suggestion would be great!

New Name for a New Start!

2009-03-20T19:14:00.000-07:00

After much contemplating over to change Destiny's name and then contemplating whether to change it or not? we have decided to change it I am still a little worried but she is only 2 1/2 so Joe and feel she is still little enough to make the change. Her name will be Ella Katherine and we will call her Ella Kate. This will give her a new beautiful name something she can grow into I really believe a name is important. some people in our family are having a hard time with it but I think it will be the best thing in the long run. We are leaving Justin's name the same except changing his middle name which we are still deciding on this here is a couple we have came up with Justin Morgan, Justin Michael, or Justin Joseph which I am really liking so we will figure it out soon let me know what you think?

My 2 Miracles now will be Forever!

2009-03-10T19:01:00.000-07:00

I have been waiting to write a new Post until I was sure how everything would go. As of a week ago the kids Mom relinquished her Parental rights to Destiny and Justin I have been very excited but careful! she technically has 10 days to change her mind which will be this Friday. We go to court Friday to terminate the Fathers of the kids rights who have never been present, and then we will be able to start the official paper work for the adoption! Thank You Jesus for your Will in this situation. the kids Mom wrote Joe and I a letter and also the kids I received it yesterday because that was her last visit with the kids. and I read it and it tore my Heart into! I was not prepared for the emotional impact it has had on Joe and I it was so Sad but at the same time I felt so honored that she has enough trust in us to raise her children and give them a safe and happy future! we are Happy but my nerves will not be settled until it is all over! the social worker is hoping for all the paper work to be completed by August we are too! so Please say a Prayer I will all go through smoothly! Thank you all your support and Prayers! on a lighter note Justin has started bitting and before he does it he says I bite! he is a mess! and Destiny is little Miss Sunshine not a care in the world!

Fun Day

2009-02-25T19:28:00.000-08:00

I thought this time I would actually blog about something fun and normal. This week I have had a slow week At work so all this week I have been moping around thinking about what I dont have instead of what I do have. so today I ran some errands and then I thought the weather is beautiful! and I need to do something to enjoy the day so I went and picked up the babies early from daycare and me and my Mom took them to Creekmore Park and they had a blast! and so did! we I am trying to learn to turn negative things into positive things and just enjoy my life no matter where or what happens. God has been so Faithful and Amazing in my Life latley I have nothing to complain about.

The Meeting went well!!

2009-02-19T19:41:00.000-08:00

I attended the meeting yesterday with the lawyers and the social worker well I suppose to but the Mom showed up so they met with her first and I waited patiently in the social workers office for my turn to speak after a long hour!! and memorizing all the social workers pictures in her office! they came to give me the news they said they have found enough evidence and outstanding things against the mother to go ahead and proceed to the termination hearing still scheduled for March 13th and the social worker is trying to talk her into signing her parental rights away before then. so please still pray! but this is good news and they don't have to do any four hour home visits. God answers prayers thank you to everyone who thought of us or prayed it means so much to us I will keep everyone posted. I think we are going to take the kids some where Saturday to celebrate!

New Update

2009-02-12T19:32:00.000-08:00

I have been in contact with the kids Lawyer and the social worker all this week and the Kids Attorney thank you Jesus for her! stopped the Saturday visits for now! there is a staff meeting scheduled for next Wednesday the 18th to decide which way the are going to move toward termination or giving the mom more time please continue to pray prayer works! I will update as soon as I know something more. and I will be attending half the meeting I am so nervous! but happy to have the opportunity to give my opinion on the safety of Destiny and Justin

Keep Checking Back

2009-02-08T16:13:00.000-08:00

I have contacted the Kids attorney because she has not been notified of the new plan so I left a message so as soon as hear what she has to say. I will give everyone an update Thanks for everyone who called or E mailed it so nice to have support while Joe and I are going through this Pray, Pray!

I will Praise You in This Storm

2009-02-07T18:39:00.000-08:00

Thank you to Everyone for all your calls and E-mails Today. I have been praying all day and the only thing that keeps coming to me is that Casting Crowns song I will Praise You in the Storm it is on my play list of music so you will have to hear the words it has been a comfort to me today some what no matter what our future holds God brought me here not to leave me now.

A change in the Case plan Please Pray!

2009-02-07T11:55:00.000-08:00

Well there has been a change of plans in the kids case. The social worker made an unexpected stop by our house last nite I should have known then something was wrong. She started out the conversation by her goal for the children's termination has not changed but! her and her Supervisor and the state lawyer had a meeting yesterday and revised the case and realized they don't have enough against the mother to terminate her rights in March basically the Mom realized in 5 weeks how to work the system and it worked. she moved out of her apartment from her boyfriend which she was not suppose to be with in the first place. and moved 2 doors down from him and says she is still with him. so the state counts that as stable housing I don't know how! but they so as of next Saturday she will start to get 4 hour visits at her apartment un supervised with the children I have been devastated and crying so much my eyes are almost swollen shut I am trying to pull it togeather for the babies but inside I am dying. the people I have been protecting them from is now the people I have to let them visit. we are hoping this will be temporary but the state will give her another 5 months and if she completes everything all follows through they will have no choice but to return Destiny and Justin But if she does not follow everything then the case will go back to termination. please Pray for them that they will be safe and Gods Will. will be done in this situation Iam trying so hard to be positive and have faith but I don't know what I will do if they go home. so please keep them in your prayers Love April

5 weeks!!!

2009-02-02T20:00:00.000-08:00

We have only 5 weeks till court which is March 13th and the closer it gets the more emotional I am getting! the social worker and the kid's lawyer are pretty sure it is going to all go through. but after this court hearing then we start the adoption process if all goes well you always hear horror stories from other Foster parents of what can or will happen so I am trying to have faith and put it all in God's hands! we have had Destiny and Justin now for 14 months and we love them so much! they have became the center of our whole world Iknow things will work out for good they are have truly become our babies! Faith is not believing God can, it is knowing God will.

More updates!

2009-01-25T08:30:00.000-08:00

Thanks for checking our blog check back for more updates we go back to court March 13th so say a prayer that it all goes well!
Joe"s sister Stacy is coming up from Oklahoma city for the court date to show support we appreciate everything our family and friends have done and been so supportive.

My Babies

2009-01-24T17:56:00.000-08:00

I am starting this blog because of 2 miracles God put in Joe and My life there names are Destiny and Justin and that is what I am sure it will be mostly about! we started the process of become Foster parents through the state of Arkansas in April of 2007 and in November 12th of 2007 our home was officially open to take children we had been going through infertility for about 3 years before. Joe and I have got Married May 24th 2003 then a year later started trying for a baby 2 years later and now pregnancy i was beginning to feel alone and very depressed were both young so It was hard for me to understand why I was unable to conceive and why god would let this happen? I would go to the store and see women pregnant and would get in my car and just cry! it was terrible all my friends were getting married and pregnant like oh yea I have been off my pills for a month and just happened! Oh i wanted to punch them!! it was extremely heart breaking so anyway after 2 years and many horrible tests! they told us the only way we would be able to get pregnant was Infertility clinic in Tulsa OK after 3 years of this Joe and I decided we just wanted to be parents! and we could not afford it either so my friend Crystal one day called me and said she knew and couple that we foster parents and had a little girl who was under 2 that needed to be adopted so I called about it and little did I know it was a process so a month later we started and the process and the day after out home was officially opened they called us to take a 14 month blue eyed blond hair little girl named Destiny they told us it would be a weekend they she would be able to go home so she was at daycare the first time I met her and picked her up she was beautiful! she came right to me from the daycare worker and lay ed her head on my shoulder. like she knew she was safe it was a bond the moment we met. then a week later they called and asked us to take her little brother Justin blond hair brown eyed little angel! they failed to mention the correct age he was 3 months old we just thought our life was busy! 2 babies in a week 11 months apart was crazy! that was 13 months ago! Destiny is 2 now ans Justin is 17 months we have watched him grow up! so now we are waiting to see what happens it has been a very stressful and awesome 15 months Destiny and Justin were born to be our babies we all just had a lot of bumps in the road to find each other! I could not have had better babies if I had them myself we are truly blessed for Each day we get to spend with them.